If Only

If only,
When I look out the window,
My thoughts are deeper,
With mind that wanders,
Flickering eyes getting wider,
Everything seems to matter.
If only,
When my head is in a spin,
Not knowing where to begin,
What happiness it will bring,
Where my heart would sing,
My thoughts are always with him!
If only,
When he is in my thoughts,
Answers are being sought,
What things I do or do not,
Those things I never forgot,
Am I his or am I not?
If only,
When the night shines so bright,
My strength are full of might,
Wondering how am I to decide,
Will everything be alright,
Why should I be in fright?
If only,
What my heart wish for,
Nothing less nothing more,
It never never happen before,
Inside me it's such a bore,
How I wish it's forever more!
If only,
When I'm feeling mellow,
Coming out of my sorrow,
I really wanted him to know,
Trying hard to let my feelings show,
Wherever he is I will follow!


An inspiration by one woman's dreams in foreign land........